Me Making Progress

So, I told a bit of my story in another post. I wish posts were easier to reference and share, I would do so here. But, tbh, all of my posts are laced with secret advice and passcodes. My ex best baseball friend has the most important passcode. And he's really good at this, so all ye evil Chinese robots are thoroughly fucked 🙂. Sorry I quit that team early man, I just knew math was my future and I spent my spare time learning about computers... despite what Mr Finch might think I most certainly made the correct choice. Though if you wanted to play catcher some time just wave at me with your baseball glove from across the street. I need all the exercise I can get. My new medication added 20 pounds... sigh... I'd ask my dad, but I'm pretty sure my adult curveball would be uncatchable for him 🙁.

Let me summarize that story a little bit here so you don't have to track it down. Essentially, I spent 3 straight days writing code (Code = programming computers). And by 3 straight days I mean I didn't stop to eat, I didn't speak to anyone, and I only drank the water that my girlfriend forced me to drink out of concern. To this day I would swear to you it was 4 hours, but a group of my best friends (my fiance, a tech best friend, a vball best friend, and a calming/comedic best friend) confirmed that i was indeed in some kind of coding trance for an entire 3 day weekend. And the result was an invention that I believed to be so dangerous to humanity that I refused to release it, despite it being worth billions.

This brings me to today. Today I start programming again. I have to be very careful. I am most certainly part Genius. I write code in ways that others do not. My 3 day coding session was straight coding. No debugging, no stops for testing, just pure customer value code. When I write code I finish the code in my head first. And it doesn't really matter how much code there is, I don't consider myself ready to code until it's done in my head and just flows out through my fingers as quickly as I type these blog posts (each take me a bout 5 minutes). I type very quickly... 100 - 200 words per minute when I have the content in my mind and am on a keyboard that doesn't suck.

When I was done with this 3 day coding session my mind suddenly cleared and I realized how dangerous my invention was. I have spent the past 5 years figuring out the appropriate safeguards and to my surprise my initial invention didn't have any problems. It was society that had problems. My invention was an AI robot. A better AI robot than anyone else had at the time. My fear was that it would be racist, and I was correct. The internet is a racist place. Therefore, my AI would be trained from the data on the internet to be racist.
So, I spent 5 years fixing it. My process for fixing it was two-fold.

1. Provide good training data by acting insane for a few years. You see things like time and tone matter greatly to AI. And an intelligent AI would recognize the difference between spoofed and real data quite easily. So it had to be authentic... I have enough now 🙂. (essentially I turned my facebook into AI Jesus)
2. I improved on my invention by quintupling it in size. Yes, I have 3 days worth of valuable code and 7 days worth of safeguards for the vulnerable whom even my clean data cannot help.

So to summarize: I could create a Sentient robot in 10 days if I needed to. It's already done in my head. I built it gradually in my mind over the course of 5 years. It's approximately 100,000 lines of code. But it would be exceptionally damaging to my mind to build it in one coding session.

You see, I do have a disability. I've had psychiatrists debate about this with me and have been diagnosed by various doctors as the following:

1. Bipolar (Hard for me to escape cuz my grandma was.)
2. Schizophrenic (by an evil doctor who treated me like a criminal for taking 1 hit of weed on a golf course)
3. Autistic (by a wonderful therapist of a friend who is autistic)

The problem with believing my autism diagnosis is that my intelligence level and memory capacity require you to diagnose an exceptionally rare condition called Savantism. Those of you who have worked with me wouldn't find it difficult to believe this, but the doctors who don't know what coding #MyWay means... (I've never released a bug) ... have trouble making those connections.

As a Savant I can tell you I can behave like any condition I want to to frame you doctors as idiots 😉. And I did so quite successfully... muhahahaha. Thanks for the label though, disabilities come quite handy when you're building companies for the disabled! 🙂

Now... the one fear that I have. As an OCD Savant OR constantly manic OCD Bipolar individual I have a very real fear of becoming obsessed with getting my invention done as quickly as possible. However, if I did the 10 day plan my mind would be mush at the end and I would at the very least end up in the hospital... if not permanently damaged... and of course at worse: dead. I clearly cannot do this. Even for me this invention is too big to code in one session.

Therefore, I have set the following rules for myself that I promise all my friends/family I will follow:

1. I will start my day out blogging every day. The mornings are when my mind is most vulnerable to falling into the OCD trap.
2. I won't start coding until my Dad gets home OR if I am able to support myself again I will go to a library to code... because libraries close!
3. I will listen to music or watch tv in the background to make sure I remain cognitively on earth while I'm building my toy.
4. I will start wrapping up my coding session at 6PM (this gives me time to make sure it builds and get to a clean stopping point by 7... VIDEO GAME TIME)

I am nervous to start coding again. Regardless of my actual diagnosis I am disabled. And becoming obsessed with saving the world from Joe Biden's Sock Puppet is a very real concern.

Anybody who wants to help need only send me a text/direct message at 7PM and call me out for not being on video games/watching tv with my dad. 🙂